who knows

- you think she's not really leaving?
-no
- why not?
-because you don't deserve that kind of pain...
(Boy Meets World)

i should be doing homework... not watching TV- not thinking of other stuff- not doing this...

Angelica told me that I was stupid last night... I am... she was right - is it too late? can I get enough courage to say anything? Jan. 3rd is coming quick... if its meant to be i dont have to say anything right... or am i just letting another great guy get away? who knows... back to homework now... this is going to be the week from hell!!!



Smalls...you are the tuffest person I know :) u'll make it through this... good luck :)

I saw a BEAR at work today

I saw a baby bear named Trouble at work today-- yes at Sea World!!! it was so cool... and there was a baby Cougar... the best part was the cougar was named Canyon :) HA HA HA - for those of you who don't know I went to NB Canyon & we were the Cougars... Canyon Cougars :-D ok... so i thought it was funny :) there was also a huge yellow python, a porcupine, a lemur, a penguin, and an Aligator- the aligator got rescued from a crack house... ha ha... who would want to raid that??? not me :)

so i had a good 12 hour day of work today :) and i have a 14 hour day tomorrow... its fun - i love being on the grill :-D

I had a great long talk with Jessimica today... i love chit chattin w/her... she is a good friend - while i was on the fone w/her Aaron called... i didnt click over and he didn't leave a message, but that means he's alive, so that is good news :)

After work i got a little sad cuz my mom and dad started decorating for Christmas w/out me today... but i got happy when I got to help when they got back from the store :-D and i found my Chimpmunks Christmas CD :-D he he he - great times

well... i have to sleep so i can cook good chicken tomorrow at work :) hope all is well


--if they are your true friends, they will be there for you, even if they dont agree with your decisions... the best friends will tell you that they disagree with you and can still be there to support you!

11/24

Rachel told me I had to update this... so here ya go... :)
The day before Thanksgiving... one of my favorite days of the year - Today will be full of cleaning and preparing for tomorrow!!
It has been 1 month-I'm not going to get sappy, so all of you can relax, I know she is watching us from better place - just sayin i miss u Elisa ...

Softball!!!!! the most frustrating thing going on right now actually - Casey is the toughest kid i know, and i have gained so much respect for her these last few weeks... BUT- her future is important to me, so those that can effect it better make it right!!!!

I found out that Joanie's cancer came back, everyone please keep praying for her, she needs it!

time to lay back in bed... i love being at home :)

moving up

Things are getting a lot better i guess.. Thursday was fun-went to wurstfest-never done that before, i liked it.. hopefully going again Sunday :) Friday was good... had lunch with CC, then hung out with Crystal Friday night... fun times thanks C --
A little nervous bout Softball now... so hopefully things will work out :-D
Get to go to Houston to hang out with Brandi this comin Friday WOO WOO -- then i'm going to the ren. fest. with my family - and E and J will be there too :)
well-hope all is oging well for all of you...

ilmo e.m.s. & s.l.s. feafa