i broke down tonight

So tonight I kinda broke down... i was talking to a friend about this boy that has really gotten to me when it hit me that I am completely alone. I have Brandi always, but she is hard to get in touch with (by the way I hope that everthing is ok) and Suz (which I am so glad we have gotten so close this summer) but in 2 weeks i will be moving back to seguin to my apartment. I am glad i have this wonderful place to live, but I will be cut off from everyone... and I am afraid that I will be forgotten about completely... I know this sounds retarded, and most of you will be like whatever, but its just how i feel... so anyway while I was talking to this friend earlier I just all of a sudden started crying (it has been a very long time since i have cried) and it jsut hit... 30 min later i now have finally stopped crying. I feel a lot better, but it scares me that I have not talked to this person, like actually me getting to talk about what is going on, in a very long time... about this time a year ago this person knew almost every thought that I had in my head, and I didn't feel like I was bothering her - guess maybe i prolly was though :) and I'm not saying that I felt that way today, but normally thats how it is... and this one person isn't the only one that this is happening with, almost all of my 'friends' I feel like they are just tolerating me when I try to talk to them, and it scares me cuz i wont even have the internet in my apartment to keep in touch with those people... OK so I am going to stop being all Poor tiffany... I'm pretty much feeling better, but this thing here does help me keep saine - and my bestest buddy said that this is her way of "talking to me" so if I had the oppurtunity to call jones right now, this is pretty much what i would talk about, so yeah... here it is, just said it to a few more people than normal

hope you all have a great day today (cuz its now a new day) I know I will... I get to go to work now... all my sickness is gone!!! YAY - hope he's there, hope its fun, hope she's gone :-